It's going to be a long old night

 Poor Bluebell might have to go to the vets in the morning. I don't think she is 100%. Today was a bonus day as school was shut due to no heating. So the fact that it was below 5C and we have to have windows wide open for Covid ventilation meant that school was closed. Which was a shame as we have not had to close any part of it yet for the Rona. So it actually felt good to go in to meet my friend for a cup of tea and put up a display in hat scarf and gloves. home by lunch meant a bonus afternoon with my girl. 

We had a lovely long walkies, along the canal and then finished with a romp on the field. Towards the end of the walk, madam decided to run into some really tangled hedging and tried to get a blackbird and I did see her slip and twist somewhat but she seemed to be unscathed. We came home and she had a shower and a good dry off and then she settled down for a snooze in her fleece. When the menfolks got home, I noticed she was nibbling at her tail a lot and it was bent down somewhat. She was still having a go at wagging it, ate her tea, had her chew and a play. But about half an hour ago we noticed she was a bit panty and shaking as if she was scared - she ran upstairs and refused to come down - where we are now. 

Anyway, she's settled a bit, cuddled up and quiet on my knee not shaking and not panting. Breathing is a bit rapid so first thing its seeking medical advice. I'm going to stay downstairs with her. Im fully reclined, I have a nana blanket and the TV for now. 

I will also catch up with blogs etc. 

I set up a facebook page called Pawesome Makes purely to see how selling my wares on there goes. I still need to sort out the photos and posts etc and it is linked to my personal page so it's not too bad for remembering more passwords! 

Lots of folks round here have already got their festive lights up and it does look so pretty. I've not done mine yet. Probably next weekend I will do the clean and then that week I'll slowly Christmassify the place. 

I have sad news and good news both cancer related. 

The good is that the HG got his latest scan results and is all clear. That's 4 years now. The letter that came said the next scan scheduled for October 2021 and if clear then he will be discharged! That can't come quick enough! 

The sad is that one of my lovely friends who I have stayed in touch with since High school has terminal bowel cancer. She continued her treatment etc throughout the lockdown but her latest scan horribly showed that it hadn't worked and that there is no more treatment for her. It's taken me a long time to process this really. Not entirely sure that I have. I have supported a lot of my friends through the loss of their parents, which whilst sad, is the normal rite of passage expected. Losing a peer isn't. 

MUST STOP EATING SO MUCH TOO!

Right fingers crossed me and the pooch have a quiet night. Updates soon. 

Love from

Rachel *worried sick* Radiostar xxx